Wednesday, May 28, 2008

OMG this is the last post!!!!

The "alleluia" chorus is gloriously ringing in my ears! No offense Miss McDonald, but I am glad this project is over! Well, it's not completely over since we still have to write the essay, and then there's the research project........... okay I'm getting ahead of myself. Take this one step at a time. But seriously, it seems like such a long time ago we got the outline of the project and were assigned our first book; time sure does fly.Anyway, I feel that this book was decent. If I had to rate these books, this is how I would rate them; The Awakening, Montana, Bell Jar, Catcher in the Rye, and Mango Street.
As I was reading other classmate's blogs,I saw that someone wrote something I agree with; I don't completely think that Sylvia Plath is a nutcase, at least her writing doesn't show it. I mean, JK Rowling could be considered a nutcase later for all we know; she did make up a entire universe that does not exist and made it seem soooo real. Did anyone know that she suffered depression when she was young, before she wrote Harry Potter? I know I'm getting sidetracked, but I just thought it was interesting how two famous authors both suffered during their lives. But back to what I was first saying, in her writing Plath just sounds like she's telling the story of a depressed person. The novel definitely has its odd moments, but I wasn't creeped out by anything. I think that with Sylvia Plath's problems, I think she kept her problems on the inside, even though she was screaming for help. Like many people do today or haev done in the past, I think she used her writing to express her emotions and feelings. Maybe Esther is how Plath truly felt, like she was writing about herself and the thing she wanted to do- the world will never know.
Even though she's a psycho, Esther would have to be my favorite character. This might sound strange, but I like that she is seriously flawed. I know with our Awakening discussion we all argued about Edna's flaws and we made her our hated character. But for me, it seemed as though all the protagonist's flaws were superficial in a way, the standard "this character is this, this character is that", and you were just " yeah, okay, whatever". But Esther just feels so real, and its not because the novel is written informally; its because, as the jacket says, her depression is so real! And she seems like all of us! Her problems are things we see and hear everyday and even if we haven't, we still understand! I disagree sometimes with her, but I didn't mind that she was flawed because we all are. It was refreshing to read a "real" story. I also agree with Ashley in her first post that Esther is terrible at the follow through when it comes to her ideals. This is another reason I like her, because all of us have a terrible time following through. And instead of being mean or moody or rude about it, i felt that she was open to herself about her weaknesses and understood them. Because this shows that she can be helped.
And I believe that it is these qualities, the ones that are there but hidden, that make Esther a strong person. Because at the end you know her journey will help her be a stronger, healthier person who will now stand up for herself and follow her dreams fully and never back down on her ideals. She is still scared at the same time, with the thought of her depression looming distantly ahead in the future; she will conquer it head on if it ever comes back.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Pauvre Esther

I really don't see how people go "ugggg... bell jar!" I think that (myself included) we can all be very whiny! But it is, to where I'm at, a good read. The story flows nicely and keeps you interested, not dozing off. Even though the beginning is a little strange- most authors do not try to attract their readers with electrocutions- I feel that it will turn out to be an interesting read. Something I was just thinking about, when we did our group discussions and while I was reading, almost every single stinkin book is written informally. Every narrarators talks to you as if they were sitting right there just chatting. Thats the beauty of these five books; someway or another, you'll connect to a character or a situation when you least expect it, and maybe you will see it in a different light or you'll walk away with an important message. I think that, even though we may not want to admit it, there was maybe one thing in each book that really stuck out for all of us, even the "bad" ones.
Well...... I think that Esther is somewhat similar to Holden. One, they're both psychos. Two, they either live or are in situations that people could only dream off, and yet they see beyond it. Holden is jsut afraid and doesn't appreciate what he has, but Esther is different. I feel bad for Esther; I think something happened to her, or set her off, that made her depressed. One quote says that " After nineteen years of running after good marks and prizes adn grants of one sort and another, I was letting up, slowing down, dropping clean out of the race" (29). Esther is giving up on her life, but why? She comes from a poor family and seems as though she worked soo hard to get into college and luckily won this contest; its like the perfect rags to riches story. But why give up now? She's on the right path, don't drop out! I believe something happened before she came to New York that set her into this new attitude and depression.
As I read this novel, I sometimes wonder about my cousin who had bipolar disorder; I wonder if he ever felt reall depressed like this. I wonder what people today go through when they're depressed like Esther. I just feel sooo bad, because sometimes they don't say anything and bad things happen when you don't ask for help. I hope Esther asks for help.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Okay, maybe I was wrong.......

Mango isn't such a terrible book. I know that in my last blog I was ranting about it; that's because I wasn't that far into it. I still have simialr feeling though; there were parts where I just said "what the heck soes this have to do with ANYTHING!" But, I know the trick to actually enjoy the book! I know this sounds crazy, but read the back cover summary and keep that in mind as you read. You'll find that you will have a whole new outlook on this novel ( I know I did). I wouldn't say I loved it, but it moved me in a way I didn't think possible. When you read it and put yourself in Espernza shoes and feel for her..... that's when you start to enjoy the book, when you put it into perspective.
I overheard someone saying this about Mango, and I totally picked up on it while reading; the opression of women. All the women are indoors; you never read about any of them going outside to do anything. The husbands are very controlling too. They are the reasons they never go out . They almost control their every movements also. The women aren't any better though; most are very submissive adn pretedn they are happy with their sitaution, like Sally. Another thing I noticed was that all the women almost regret the sitaution they are in, or have wishful thinking. In once chapter, Esperanza's mother reminisces her school experiences and how she could have become anything. This shows that she regrets what she did and also to show Esperanza to go out and get what she wants; not to follow in her mother's footsteps. I'm going to make a small character connection; the two e's, Esperanza and Edna! The two are similar because they both do not want to conform to what society and life has in store for them, or what is expected of them. Esperanza knows this from the beginning instead of having an awakening, and thankfully she doesn't go and commit suicide.
I feel that the end of the book is the most powerful, at least for me; what did it was the part where Esperanza is at the wake and the "three sisters" talk to her; one of them tells her not to forget Mango and to come back. Later, Alicia tells her the same thing ( a little bit of Macbeth for you there?) I felt that this is true. Esperanza resents her situation and her life, constantly wanting more. But her previous situations and her life on Mango are apart of who she is; they have shaped her and changed her as an individual. WIth her strong personality, she will eventually leave Mango and everyone behind to do what she wants. Later however, she will coem back to her roots; I believe she will come back to change Mango Street, to make it better.
So, we have 1 book left!!!!! YAY!!!! And then we get to write essays!!!! YAY!!!!!!

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

What.............

I'm a little....... no actually ALOT confused by this novel. I think its fun how the author wrotes it in short chapters, almost like short stories. But I don't see where it is going! I mean, Catcher was random and confusing at times, bu there was a distinctive storyline to follow. This one, not so much. At times you the reader are just thrown into these stories in the novel with no background info on anything. There are a few character that I still have no clue about. The book is also very short too; I really don't know where this is going. But anyway, it is not a terrible book. Even though I'm terribly confused, the shortness and sometimes randomness keeps me focused; a new story awaits each chapter.
Something that interested me was the chapter where she talks about her name. She wishes that her name was different, that it means sadness and waiting; she also mentions how she was named after her grandmother. I'm interested to see if Esperanza wil lparallel her grandmother later on in the novel. Esperanza mentions that her grandmother was more of a feminist; maybe Esperanza will have the same attitude. The legacy of the name Esperanza will pass on from generation to generation.
Something I also noticed was how real everything seems in the novel. You can really tell this is truly live in poverty; it not overdramatized as in the movies or other books. Nothing is sugar-coated, which I think is good for us as a whole. Since we live in such an affluent area, books like this are a wake up call telling us what the world is really like. Also, you can really feel for Esperanza and her family, and feel their pain and sorrow. Its almost like reading an autobiography.
Thats all I have to say about this; I know its really short. I saved you all from reading a really long blog; now go and read all of ashley's 10 paragraphs! Ha!Ha!

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

I would have to disagree with the Staples commercial...........

As the title states, i have to disagree with the Staples commercial; that was NOT EASY!!!!! It wasn't that the language was challenging or anything like that, it just took forever to get through a page sometimes and think about it and analyze it. I felt like it took me a 1/2 hour to read 5 pages! But, I have to agree with Miss McDonald; this book is good, actually it is very good. Once you get passed the exhaustion of reading it and really think about the plot and the storyline, you enjoy it a lot more. I know that from someone else who already read this book ( Emily) that while she started her new book, she found that she like The Awakening better than the book she was reading. Also, I got some interesting outside opinions, and not from period 3 honors. I talked with people from Ms Marootian's class, aka ma soeur ( for those of you who don't speak french i am talking about my sister) and it was interesting to hear her opinion on the book- their evil adn only have to read 2 books. But it was nice to have an outside opinion, someone who's project is completely different from ours. But anyway, I enjoyed reading the book and feel that people should read this at least once in their lifetime, even if at the end you despised it, just so who get a feeling for it.
Anywho, there is still more to discuss. I'm limiting myself to one character this time; I'm going to talk about our protagonist, Edna ( i sometimes imagined her randomly as little edna mode from the incredibles- it made me laugh!). I have mixed feelings about Edna from this story. One, I admire her for having this awakening; it was probably very rare for that to happen during that time period. But she "woke up" and realize that the situation she was in wasn't the best and decided to change and become the person she wanted to be. I think that is why once she returned from Grand Isle, Edna spent so much time with Mademoiselle Reisz. She looked up to her lifestyle and how she was independent and wanted to be like Mademoiselle in some ways. I'm not crazy though about how she went about things; this is soooo confusing to write about. i think that Edna is first of all very selfish. She only cared about herself and what she wanted to do not realizing how it would eventually affect others. She says that she wasn't meant for marriage or motherhood and the society she was in. So if it is not meant for you, why even marry Leonce? I feel that the innocent bystanders, especially the children, suffered from Edna's choices. Those poor kids were pushed away from their own mother, I felt so terrible! Even though I wasn't a fan of Leonce either, I believe he truly did love her and in some ways respect her as his wife; if their was an epilogue to this, I think we would see that he was hurt the most. I praise Edna for her strength to defy, but I don't agree with her decisions. I also thought Edna was similar to our favorite crazy high society woman, Catherine Earnshaw. The two are a bit psycho at times with their crazy emotions and their feministic ideals and actions are similar; both defy the men around them. Personally, I think Catherine had a better ending than Edna; eternity with Heathcliff.
As I stated before ( this is the last part of my blog, i promise!), I admire Edna for her awakening, and I thank her. Actually, I thank every woman who was like Edna, because if not for them, where would we be. Min-Ji, Steph, Ashley, what would our lives be like today if not for these awakenings and strong women to change the world they lived in? I realize we are still struggling today, but look at how far we have come in a century( awakening was written in 1899)! We should be grateful that we can go out into world and achieve our dreams without people adn society telling us it isn't proper. I think that Edna deserves a little applause.

Thursday, April 17, 2008

This is not the worst book on the planet..... at least its better than his excellency

I had some fears when Emily handed me her copy of "The Awakening" last Friday; as she puts it in her blog "If this book is the 'awakening', I would hate to read the 'sleeping'". I had heard that this was the worst (from various sources) who were so glad to be rid of it- except Miss McDonald, who loves this book. And I woud have to agree with her; "The Awakening" is not that bad. I haven't gotten to the true plot yet, but so far it is holding my interest. The problem I'm having with this book- and maybe others fell this way too- is that the language is easy, but for some reason or another, it just takes me longer to read. Maybe it's the small type, I don't know. The slowness of the novel reminds me of reading "His Excellency" over the summer..... except that book was terrible (no offense, Ms. Horn)! But that book too was just slow... and the type was so small, it just took me a long time to read. I believe the reason why it's so slow is because Chopin is portraying to the reader Edna life; it wasn't that interesting! Her life was everyday normal life for a high society women. If someone were to read about our lives 100 years form now, they would probably be bored to tears. I think she wants the readers to see what Edna is going through and to feel for her- that she is not happy with her life.
As David this morning made a wonderful connection to The Lion King, I have a movie connection- Yippeee! Drumroll please............... Edna is similar to Rose- of Titanic! Both women are of high society and living around the same time period. Also, both women are oppressed; both feel the pressure of society expecting them to be a certain way. Edna, and Rose too, is unhappy with her life; her children, her husband, and as she calls her "Fate". She longs to have something else in her life and wants to break free from society. Rose is similar in the same ways too; she is unhappy with her engagment and wants something more that socials and dinner parties. There are some differences though. Edna, as of where i am in the novel, is just discovering that she can transform into someone else adn break away from what she knows. Rose, on the other hand, knows all along that she wants to break away, but is screaming for help from those around her. Another difference is that Edna is more proper and not as rebellious as Rose. As Edna states, she is uncomfortable expressing her emotions openly to Madame Ratignolle, and is unconfortable with improper interactions with the opposite sex- i.e. when Robert is flirting with her. Rose, in the film, openly rebells, smoking in public and mocking the men around her, like in the scene when she is dining with her mother, the guy who build the ship, etc. I hope that Edna will not be as psychotic as Rose; I hope she doesn't try to jump off a ship!

Yay, I wrote a shorter blog!!!! Spring Break is almost here!!!! Whoopeeee!! :)

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

This is one controversial book- but the ending is really good :)

I have to say, so far, this is the best book of this project (will have to see what happens in the next few weeks). i thought this book was very captivating; once you found out that Frank raped the Indian girls, or that Marie died, you kept on wanting to read more... find out what happens next. I thought that, for such a new piece of literature- only about 14 years old- it is definitley going to be a classic, mainly it is because it is relateable. Even though it takes place in... guess what year? 1984!!! You're such as smarty pants!!!! Anyway, even though it takes places about 60 years ago, these issues show up today; on the news, in magazines, gossip. It shows that our clothes may change and music changes and old things are replace with new things, but issues like these stay forever, and happen all the time. Almost everything that was brought up I could say that it happens somewhere all the time.
So thats my opinion on the book. i wanted to try and focus this blog on the characters. First at bat, Wes Hayden. I could never be in the situation that he was in. i think at first he wanted to push the rape off to the side; he didn;t want to deal with it. i think, like David, Wes idolized Frank because he was his older brother and in a sense, Frank had it all. Wes didn't want to think his brother could do something like this. Also, I don't think he wanted to make this public, since they were basically celebrities in the town; he didn't want people gossiping about his family. Also, how terrible is the grandfather? STUPID FAVORITISM!!!!! To say "my son" all the time and accuse your other child of being jealous, thats terrible. And also to jsut come to the house and tell Wes that he locked Frank up for a stupid reason, to condone his mistakes?! I just felt that this scene in the book really brought Wes to a breaking point with his parents, that the ties must be severed.
Now a bat; Frank, o nasty perverted one. I could not believe that Frank committed suicide. Well, I guess everything happens for a reason. I feel that Frank may have been one of those misunderstood characters. I think he was the "good guy", but inside he had all these emotions and problems; maybe beliefs that he had to be perfect and live up to a certain expectation. And then his secret comes out. I think maybe the reason he did this was one, to relieve everyone of the situation, adn two, to releive himself. By killing himself- not the smartest idea- he would not have to live with all the shame and whispers for the rst of his life, anf maybe he relived himself of what he was going through.
Now to Mrs. Hayden (grandmother) and Gail. I see these two women as FOILS. Mrs Hayden comes across as the "female opressed by the powerful male". We can all see that the grandfather is this strong commanding man, and that she is timid and doesn't say much; she goes along with whatever he does and does it without a complaint. On the other hand, Gail is what we would say today as a modern woman; she works and takes care of her family. she's strong, and, most importantly, she doesn't want to be treated as a "delicate flower". When Wes is trying to figure out what to do, she is right there by his side, helping him make the decisons. She also expresses alot of her concerns to him too. Gail doesn't seem to appreciate when Wes tells her to leave.
i found it ironic how David believes that Frank's death would solve their problems, when it doesn't. The family is broken up, they eventually have to move away and start a new life. I felt bad that the situation was so tough that they had to moved, when all they tried to do was do the right thing. I know that in my family, the deaths brought us closer together; we were always together at someone's house, even after the funeral. It's sad that this happened because in times like these, you really need you family.